you hated her because of what she did to you. and you hated her because she was a hypocrite. did god's love mean something else to her? she hurt you and she hurt the rest of your siblings. but [] was the worst. elevated beyond any mortal man. they called [] a prophet. you saw how it hurt them. the visions were violent and left []'s nose bleeding. shaking on the floor. you had to remove the tables from the hallway so [] wouldn't hit []'s head on them if [] fell. Mom complained about the hospital bills and the no-good doctor shoving chemicals down [] throat. she still gave you Caleb as the third daughter of the family. it's a woman's duty to raise children and serve her husband. you have neither. your [] was only 2 years older than you. you had so much to live up to. after all, who could replace the fifth major prophet of God? but you knew [] was just your sibling. mom locked [] in a room and wrote them notes. [] came down to the dinner table shaking and bruised while you pretended to be a family. then you went to church and they dressed [] up and paraded them around. it made you sick. it made you sick enough to get rid of the problem.